While human being is considered to be one of the most illustrious creation of God (or whoever made the world, etc), to me, there is one thing in particular that appears to be a wonder in its true form. Of course, it's beautiful how humans have skin to save them from physical pain and it's intriguing how the tongue is in place to speak and hands are in place to type, etc etc... it's in fact the emotions or feelings, whatever one may chose to call it, that intrigues me beyond imagination.
It's like the most complex thing ever, because you can have infinite emotions at the same time and at others, you may not have even one. Also, sometimes you (or some people) can portray or share a gazzilion emotions with just about strangers, and at others you hold back the most obvious emotions from your closest person.
I wonder how that wiring between the head and heart would have worked, because... well... it's just so complex!
Remember that one night, long ago, when a boyfriend had first admitted he loved you? It felt like the best time in your whole life and a 'happily ever after' just in the making... But didn't you at that point also feel the emotion of 'oh my god, what have I gotten myself into?' and the obvious 'what if dad gets to know what I am thinking about?'... of course these were all thoughts, but each one enthused a new emotions... of love, of happiness, of fear and uncertainty and so many other things.
It's strange actually how we use and abuse our emotions without so much as caring to understand--what is the emotion I am feeling right now?
Most of the people my age (includes me very much) spend a huge chunk of the day feeling 'nothing', which we assume means feeling 'bored'. Over the past few days, I have come to realise how much I can cherish these moments of the 'nothing emotion', because well, it's such a relief to my senses. (Although, mostly this nothing-emotion happens when I am trying to procrastinate what I should be feeling at that time.)
We live such mad lives where we don't even have visibility of what we would be doing a couple of hours later. When we wake up in the morning, we have no idea how the day is going to end. Every few hours, work keeps evolving, along with which, feelings keep changing. And between all of this mentally, physically and emotionally tiring madness... Imagine that bit of the day when you are 'bored' (which actually is the period of the 'nothing emotion' to me) you let the senses relax and wander, however they want to.. without any pressure of performance to meet the social expectations of which emotions should show when and in what amount.
It's like the most complex thing ever, because you can have infinite emotions at the same time and at others, you may not have even one. Also, sometimes you (or some people) can portray or share a gazzilion emotions with just about strangers, and at others you hold back the most obvious emotions from your closest person.
I wonder how that wiring between the head and heart would have worked, because... well... it's just so complex!
Remember that one night, long ago, when a boyfriend had first admitted he loved you? It felt like the best time in your whole life and a 'happily ever after' just in the making... But didn't you at that point also feel the emotion of 'oh my god, what have I gotten myself into?' and the obvious 'what if dad gets to know what I am thinking about?'... of course these were all thoughts, but each one enthused a new emotions... of love, of happiness, of fear and uncertainty and so many other things.
It's strange actually how we use and abuse our emotions without so much as caring to understand--what is the emotion I am feeling right now?
Most of the people my age (includes me very much) spend a huge chunk of the day feeling 'nothing', which we assume means feeling 'bored'. Over the past few days, I have come to realise how much I can cherish these moments of the 'nothing emotion', because well, it's such a relief to my senses. (Although, mostly this nothing-emotion happens when I am trying to procrastinate what I should be feeling at that time.)
We live such mad lives where we don't even have visibility of what we would be doing a couple of hours later. When we wake up in the morning, we have no idea how the day is going to end. Every few hours, work keeps evolving, along with which, feelings keep changing. And between all of this mentally, physically and emotionally tiring madness... Imagine that bit of the day when you are 'bored' (which actually is the period of the 'nothing emotion' to me) you let the senses relax and wander, however they want to.. without any pressure of performance to meet the social expectations of which emotions should show when and in what amount.
